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I was explaining my two emotional foster kids to the new, (competing) agency and how burned out I was......

I loved these children. But I also had K, only a baby at the time, on my back everywhere we went, so I could keep her safe and out of reach, and bonding to me.

I was trying to find a way to relate and connect with both these children. It was working. All the caseworkers, CASA worker, social workers, therapist all said so. These kids were making progress. You could actually come over for dinner and we could all sit down and it would feel like a normal dinner at a normal household......

But then the company would leave....

Lets just say it was more than I was able to handle...

It is also when I discovered what RAD is.

Attachment disorder.

Knowing what I know now, I probably would take a RAD child, (after all, rules are meant to be broken), but only younger than K, and only one at a time.....

Lets just say I just got burned out.

And for the record, Hubby and I would have adopted either one of these children, but we knew we couldn’t take both of them. In the end, it wasn’t an option as they went home.

It scares me to take another child like one of these - But I also know this is probably the first rule that I might break. I’ve learned a lot since those days. I learned mostly on the job, but also from adoption.com and researching, and getting support from other foster families.

Today I would do it again, but differently.

So, I think I'd rather tackle a medically challenged child this time around.

Oh and P.S. These children went home to birth mother, aged twenty one, who also has another child aged two and is pregnant again.