I have a confession to make. While I sat in church yesterday morning, my mind was on everything but the sermon. I sat scribbling a “to do” list on the back of part of my church bulletin. I am feeling overwhelmed right now. I have a very sensitive heart, and other people’s issues, in addition to my own, weigh heavy on me right now.

First and foremost being my niece. She is in the middle of a very ugly custody battle that my brother has initiated. I am very angry with him for everything he is putting her through, especially during what should be, one of the happiest summers of her life. It is her last summer before she starts high school. She should be enjoying time with her friends. Instead, she is worried about court dates, attorney meetings, visitation schedules, etc. I intended to see her yesterday, but was too exhausted from our trip back from Kansas and my husband’s on call schedule for the ambulance did not allow me to leave Hannah with him while I went to see her. We will make a trip down there today after Hannah returns from summer school to see my niece before she starts, what is sure to be a very volatile one week stay at her dad’s.

I also have Kory and Mackenzie on my mind. The baptism of an infant during the service yesterday brought back memories of Kory’s & Mackenzie’s baptisms. I’m not sure why. I am usually joyous for the parents of the new baby. Kory has been on my mind lately because of the child abuse case I have been blogging about. Last I knew he was living near where this story was happening, so I have been quite worried about him.

Sammy and his upcoming home pass in two weeks have left me with a sick feeling. I am already feeling bitter about the behavior contract that we have to work with while he’s home. Once again, we will be working harder on his behavior than he is. The contract requires us to praise him for good behaviors and to deduct points for bad behaviors. This is all presuming that he cares about the points, which I highly doubt. I wonder when I could get someone to write a behavior contract for me and praise me and reward me for all the hard work I have put into my kids? I doubt that would go over well.

The next month will be busy as can be with all the final plans for the ATN conference, as well as meeting with contractors to put in a new driveway and garage in hopes of it helping to sell our house. There are the required permits to be obtained, talks with the neighbors, and then the endless stream of construction people that will be in and out every day.

And this doesn’t count the regular doctors appointments, dentist appointments, errands, house cleanings and showings, and just day to life.

This blog isn’t meant to be a whine about my personal life, but rather for you readers to know that you are most certainly not alone. I know that there are people feeling incredibly overwhelmed in their parenting, because I have been hearing a lot from them lately. I have an unusually high number of requests for therapist referrals, treatment center information and how parents can get funding for services for their children. I know that you understand what I just wrote, and you’re probably nodding like a bobble head doll.

Here in the Midwest, it’s a beautiful day. No matter where you live, join me in a glass of lemonade, listen to the birds sing, take in the glory of the flowers, and for a moment, sit with a “friend” who understands.

Self care

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